For The Love of Cain Always – FTLoCA

The following is taken from my journal that I began when my dog Cain was diagnosed with cancer in April 2008. It chronicles the emotions that I experienced, as well as many lessons that Cain taught me through the gift that was him. It’s an easy read, so please don’t let the lengthy look scare you! I welcome your comments and hope that you too can take something with you as you read along. May it inspire you to live your life filled with love, and to cherish each moment. kk

Friends of Cain
New Beginnings
Best Friends
A New Picture and Unexpected News
A New Test
A Visit To Colorado State University
A Decision Made
Post Surgery
Post Op Results
Did I Mention New Beginnings
About Cain
No Dogs Beyond This Point
Yesterday’s News
Familiar Doors
A Less Invasive Treatment
The End Of Month One
More Sniffles
CBC And Another Lung X-Ray
I Already Knew
The Last Visit of 2008
Four Treatments To Go
A Long Wait
A Private Room
A Long Drive Home
I Wonder
Lessons From Cain
I Get This Way Sometime
A One Year Celebration
Best Friends Again
Angel’s Rest and Lenny
Above Angel’s Rest
Double Digits
Kristin Adams
A Wonderful Summer
438,000 Hours
That Nasty Tumor
The Biggest Sign of All
A Sunny Day From A Dog’s Perspective
One Last Trip
Many Changes
Two Familiar Voices
A Slow Walk
The Same
Too Much Snow
Ups and Downs
A Roller Coaster
Extra Thoughts
A Bright Flame
The Biggest Lesson Learned
An Empty Space
Missing You
For A Moment
Sleeping With Bear
The Phone Call
An Adventure
Dear Cain
A Conversation With Erin Allen
A Visit From Kristin Adams
I Keep Thinking
No Promises
A Blessing At Best Friends
A Shadow And Emotions
Bear And Cain: A Special Bond
Misty Morning
A Walk With An Angel
The Red Rubber Ball
Three Signs
A Road Trip Of Emotion
Aileen Walden And The Canyon’s Magic
A Breeze At Angels Rest
Tremendous People
What If Christmas
Be The Change
Thank You To Friends And Inspirations
January Day
Just Call Them Signs
Beneath The Surface
Dear Kelly
Love Is To Be Shared
I Didn’t Cry
The World Goes On
A Picture Perfect Purple Haze
A Basketball Jones
The Leash In My Back Pocket
Celebrate The Moments With Pink Sugar Icing
The Ice Cream Truck
Finding Purpose and Passion
My Rainbow Connection
Sprinklers At Dawn
Fragments of Thoughts in a Field of Blue Flowers
An Angel and an Ice Cream Truck
Remembering Cain
Twice Today

17 Responses to For The Love of Cain Always

  1. DMalin says:

    Compelling, compassionate, emotional, heart warming and truly a gift, your heart!

  2. nellie says:

    What a beautiful story. Cain will always be a special part of your life. I just received a copy of Best Friends and I think you should share your story with them

  3. Eileen says:

    Such a lovely story…..brings to mind so many wonderful memories of a furry friend of mine who also has passed. You two were so fortunate to spend the time that you had together. It truly was a blessing, one you will forever be thankful for. I’m thinking that my Jake might have a new friend called Cain…..I’m sure together they would have a great time.

  4. kel says:

    Thank you Eileen…there are so many of us who share the same kind of bond. It makes me smile to know that their love continues to shine, and through them new friendships are formed.

  5. Beth says:

    Hi Kelly,
    I used to work with your Dad at McDonnell Douglas and he mentioned you and this site in his trip journal, so I thought I’d venture over here & check it out. I’m very glad I did.

    I am having a difficult time finding the words to adequately convey how Caine’s story touched my heart. You have written every entry so beautifully, and, I’m sure like for many others who have read this, it brought back a flood of memories for me when I lost my best friend, “Samantha” (Sammy) to cancer a few years ago. Her passing was so sudden and unexpected & I had no time to prepare for it. The void you speak of, and so much of what you have written, reflect the feelings I went through in trying to accept the fact that she was gone. You are so right about the lessons we can learn from our 4-legged friends. You are doing a beautiful thing with “wichcuit” and I wish you all the best. I just might have to get myself one of those t-shirts when you get them ready to sell! 🙂

  6. kel says:

    Thanks so much Beth…I think I speak for many people when I say they are special gifts on loan to us for far too short a time. k

  7. Linda Heuertz says:

    Just read Cain’s story-unbelievably heart touching and inspiring-have a soul mate myself by the name of Mandy-a feisty rat terrier who is 15 years old and still enjoying life. She also has had mast cell tumors and 2 surgeries to remove them. She is and will always be my best friend. I don’t know what to do when it is her time-your words have touched me deeply. They are very special gifts.

  8. kel says:

    Thank you so much Linda. Just as I know you can relate, he was the most incredible and loving experience of my life, and I still miss him every day. Enjoy each and every moment with your sweet Mandy. They are indeed very special gifts. k

  9. Anne says:

    I have had to part with two of my dogs. One suffered from uncontrollable seizures. He was brilliant, fast, and burned white hot. I grieved for years that he was gone far too young at 5 years and that I made the decision to release him from his chains on a day when he was seizure-free and happy.

    The other died at 10 from an enlarged heart. He was devious and clever, empathetic and sensitive, suave and smooth. He fought so bravely for a year and his advancing disease did not prevent him from enjoy everything life had to offer. One night he looked at me and told me he was done.

    Your post brought floods of emotion to me and it’s as if I were reading my own voice. Thank you for expressing so beautifully the feelings we have for our best friends. They give joy that has no boundary and we grieve with heart and soul when we part.

    If I can’t see my dogs in the afterlife, I’m not going.

  10. kel says:

    Thank you Anne. How lucky you were to share each others’ lives, and I agree, they absolutely give us joy that has no boundary. There’s a quote that says, “Dogs lives are too short. Their only fault, really.” I still miss Cain every day, and I fully agree on the afterlife.

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